I’m in a season of making peace. Making peace with days that don’t go my way, with things that feel uncertain and with not having full control over the things swirling around me.
Grace is the word of my life these days, taking baby steps into what it means to give myself a break.
There are many more questions than answers these days. I have lists of dates and flights and logistics to work out. I’m getting teeny glimpses into the future while also staying firmly put right here.
And if I’m honest, the uncertainty has been driving me crazy. I’ve been afraid– overanalyzing everything just hoping for some clarity, a slightly larger window into the promise of tomorrow.
I’ve been staying up late, talking to the people I love, and crying a lot. Change isn’t easy.
The worst part of all is how angry I’ve been with myself. I was mad that I couldn’t seem to get it together. I was disappointed that I wasn’t strong enough to take the change in stride, laughing and trusting all the while.
And then one night everything broke.
All of my fears came tumbling out in a gigantic heap leaving me tearstained with a runny nose. I finally gave up the fight – gave up my death grip on my life.
And what happened next was the best part of all.
Things got quiet.
All of my fears and doubts and worries got blissfully quiet, leaving me with fresh, wide open eyes to see the world and the people around me.
I’ve been skipping through these last few days, seeing everything for the first time.
I’ve been praying fervent prayers, realizing that God is with me and that I was never, ever alone.
I’ve been loving and smiling and dreaming and laughing – tasting the sweetness of life in a whole new way.
It’s simple and it’s quiet. And I couldn’t be more grateful.
I’ve been so inspired by photographs recently… stocking them up and saving them for days when I just need to be reminded of what’s true and good in the world. They capture the little things that delight and surprise me and I wanted to share some of them with you today.
Lets take today to remember the little things and the big things that make life so sweet.