Dear sweet friend,
I went to an event last night in Nashville that did so much in my heart, I can’t wait to tell you about it.
It was an IF:Pray event—a time for women from all different churches to come together to worship and pray for our city.
The evening was stunning. I wish you could have seen it. It was a beautiful collection of women—women in different seasons of life, with different stories, different worries, different triumphs, but all of us cleared out our schedules and met in one place, deciding that we wanted to link arms on behalf of our city.
I was a teary mess all night—the worship, the prayers, the scripture—it was like buckets of water to my heart that’s felt pretty dry, cracked, and worried lately.
But the end… what happened at the end is what I could not wait to tell you about.
One of the pastors got up and told us to put our arms around the women next to us. Then, in her big, beautiful voice she sang,
“I love you, I really do. I’ll fight for you.
I love you, I really do. I’ll protect you.
I love you, I really do. I’ll comfort you.
I love you, I really do. I’ll stand with you.”
I stood there, my arms wrapped around my sweet small group friends, feeling united, in this together, and so beautifully not alone… and crying my eyes out.
Because in that moment, I was certainly thinking about my small group friends, but I was also thinking about you.
The pastor sang the words right out of my heart, the words that have inspired every single word I’ve ever written. I love you, and I’m going to fight for you, I love you and I’m going to protect you, I love you and I’m going to comfort you, I love you and I’m going to stand with you.
You guys, this is 1000% more than a blog to me. This is a sisterhood of women who are doing life together, who are walking with one another, telling each other the truth along the way. This connected, truthful, grace-filled community is something I’m committed to putting my heart and soul into forever. And I feel like in that moment, singing those words among hundreds of women, I committed to it all over again.
I’m working on something new for y’all these days. It’s my next online course, although a course feels like a totally impersonal word for the soul work that we’re going to do together. I’ve been calling it, “Become your own best friend” but I’m realizing that’s not exactly what it’s about.
It’s a journey of listening to who we have speaking into our lives, and figuring out what they’ve been saying. It’s making some big decisions to bring in more people and influences who build us up, and reducing the ones who tear us down and make us feel small. It’s a journey of listening to our own inner voices, seeing if our thoughts are a friend, or if we’ve been having our own worst critic narrating our lives.
It’s a journey of figuring out what we truly believe about ourselves, what we really see when we look in the mirror and figuring out what of that is truth and what of it are lies.
It’s a journey of pulling those lies off of us, setting us free, and replacing them with what God says is true about us.
It’s a journey of us really truly understanding what it means to have freedom in Christ—not just in theory, but in real, flesh-and-blood life. It’s a journey towards believing from the tops of our heads, to the ends of our toes that we are perfectly and wonderfully made, that the banner stretching high over our heads says, “Love.”
And I truly believe that when we believe those things to be true about us, when we stand in the freedom of who God created us to be, we can actually do the things He created us to do. And if we were to all do that, this world would be a drastically different place. (I can’t WAIT to see it!)
It’s the most beautiful, personal journey I’ve been on in my life. It changed me and every single aspect of my life. And my hope is that I can walk with you down the same path God took me on.
But here’s the truth: Writing this course has been HARD. I’ve never had a baby, but when people say that writing a book is like giving birth, this is what I imagine they’re talking about. I’m crying through the pages, praying desperate prayers for God’s words to show up on the page instead of mine. Some days I feel like I must have lost my ever-loving mind to take on something this massive, and some days I want to quit.
But last night, singing those words reminded me of why I’m doing this. I love you, sweet friend. I love you for the woman you are today, and for the woman you’re becoming. I love you in your mess, and on your worst days, and in the depth of your insecurities. I love you for what God is calling you to do in the world—for the gifts He’s given just to you, and the ways you’re going to use them.
And I promise you, right now, today, that I’m going to do everything I can to fight for you, protect you, comfort you, and stand with you.
So with that said, with my bare, teary heart out there on the table, I want to ask a few things of you. First, I want to ask your forgiveness in advance if my blogs are a bit inconsistent for the next month. I’m going to ask for your grace and for your patience with me if I’m a bit slow at responding to emails. But while I may be a bit absent here for the next few weeks, I want you to know that my absence is due to the fact that I’m here putting everything I have into this course.
The second thing I want to ask of you is that you’ll consider joining me for this journey.
I know you don’t know a ton about it yet, but I’ll tell you all about it, I promise. But I’d love for you to just have it in the back of your mind. I’d love for you to write the date on your calendar. (I’m thinking it’ll be available from October 12-16. You can sign up here to be reminded when the doors open up!)
I’d love for you to start to think of ways you might need more of God’s truth in your life, for His truth to sink into your soul to the point where you actually, actually believe it. I want you to start dreaming a little bit about what that could look like, and what life would look like if God’s truth about you is what you saw reflected back at you when you look in the mirror.
I promise you that I’m going to put the best of what God’s put in me into this course, and I hope when it’s done that you’ll join me so we can walk into some fantastic, glorious freedom together.
In the meantime, and always, know that I love you and I’m fighting for you, here to comfort you, protect you, and stand with you. Email me anytime, I’m always here for you.
All my love,