Iโm in a season of making peace. Making peace with days that donโt go my way, with things that feel uncertain and with not having full control over the things swirling around me.
Grace is the word of my life these days, taking baby steps into what it means to give myself a break.
There are many more questions than answers these days. I have lists of dates and flights and logistics to work out. Iโm getting teeny glimpses into the future while also staying firmly put right here.
And if Iโm honest, the uncertainty has been driving me crazy. Iโve been afraidโ overanalyzing everything just hoping for some clarity, a slightly larger window into the promise of tomorrow.
Iโve been staying up late, talking to the people I love, and crying a lot. Change isnโt easy.
The worst part of all is how angry Iโve been with myself. I was mad that I couldnโt seem to get it together. I was disappointed that I wasnโt strong enough to take the change in stride, laughing and trusting all the while.
And then one night everything broke. ย
All of my fears came tumbling out in a gigantic heap leaving me tearstained with a runny nose. I finally gave up the fight โ gave up my death grip on my life.
And what happened next was the best part of all.
Things got quiet.
All of my fears and doubts and worries got blissfully quiet, leaving me with fresh, wide open eyes to see the world and the people around me.
Iโve been skipping through these last few days, seeing everything for the first time.
Iโve been praying fervent prayers, realizing that God is with me and that I was never, ever alone.
Iโve been loving and smiling and dreaming and laughing โ tasting the sweetness of life in a whole new way.
Itโs simple and itโs quiet. And I couldnโt be more grateful.
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Iโve been so inspired by photographs recentlyโฆ stocking them up and saving them for days when I just need to be reminded of whatโs true and good in the world. They capture the little things that delight and surprise me and I wanted to share some of them with you today.
Lets take today to remember the little things and the big things that make life so sweet.
Those are awesome images!
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I just love reading Stephanie’s posts. They always relate and speak to me.
Oh my friend, you are so sweet and beautiful. I love your honesty and I understand exactly. Thank you for sharing your heart and life on these pages and thank you for sharing such works of art too! Love you sister!
Thank you Dayna! ๐ You’re so sweet. Love you!!
“Itโs simple and itโs quiet…”
oooh yes! ๐
needed to hear this in someone else’s words today – to sum up the thinkings of my heart.
such wisdom – and you are right – such reason to celebrate, delight, remember, and just be…
I love you a lot Christy!
Once again, you’ve described my life (complete with amazing pictures that make me smile). It took me 37.5 years to get to that place you just described (sort of culminating in Guatemala:) so be proud of yourself- gracefully- for your quick progress! ๐
You are so encouraging. I can’t tell you how much your words mean to me. ๐
This is beautiful. Thank you so much for that encouragement!
Spoke straight to my heart… having some big changes of my own to face soon… so this really comforted and spoke to my heart! Glad we are not alone in our feelings!
Diana, I’m so glad! Thank you so much for sharing!
Really great blog. Resonates a lot with some of the stuff I’ve been dealing with.
Thanks Hugh! I’m so glad!